One more moment is all that she needs,
Yet that "one more moment" causes her heart to bleed
The guilt she feels is ripping her in two,
She prays the feelings will end, yet they continue
Desiring to let the emotions out, but knowing it can't be,
For it would only hurt others, this she plainly sees
Is it known but just not spoken this secret inside her soul?
How many more years will this secret have control?
Friday, January 22, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
on Haiti
Many have started donating to the people of Haiti since the earthquake. Am I not practicing Christianity when I am thinking..."If they believed in God and followed Him instead of their gods, maybe they wouldn't be in that situation"?
Sunday, January 10, 2010
on Satan's sin
I've been studying our adversary, Satan, and I have a thought...So bear with me...
Am I correct in saying that pride in itself isn't a sin? It's actually how we allow pride to work in us as did Satan.
That being asked...then pride, anger, lust, etc...were all created from the beginning. What I'm trying to say is for Satan to have allowed his pride to cause him to do his own will, as stated in Isaiah 14:13,14, then the presence of pride had to have been there beforehand.
Does that make sense?
God created ALL things.
Am I correct in saying that pride in itself isn't a sin? It's actually how we allow pride to work in us as did Satan.
That being asked...then pride, anger, lust, etc...were all created from the beginning. What I'm trying to say is for Satan to have allowed his pride to cause him to do his own will, as stated in Isaiah 14:13,14, then the presence of pride had to have been there beforehand.
Does that make sense?
God created ALL things.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
on what's important
Life seems so fast-paced these days. Joe and I both work long hours. He's a chef and I'm in retail. I'm working 60+ hours a week right now, of course it's the season.
I don't know when it started, I just know it's caught up with me. I've put my family, church and other obligations on the back-burner because work has really had me tied up. I've been extremely emotional, stressed, and just flat out tired. I'm enjoying having the extra money, because it's nice not living pay-check to pay-check like many are doing these days. It's nice to not have to worry if the fridge breaks whether or not we can afford a new one. I like being able to run out and buy new clothes if I want and not worry about the budget.
But lately it's all been eating at me. I've come to realize the sacrifices I'm making aren't the sacrifices I should be making. What's really important to me? You know sometimes we get so caught up in life that we forget about who's life it's affecting. I know that lately my spiritual relationship with God isn't what it should be. I know the relationship with my husband and daughter haven't been the same. I know that I have to review the circumstances and find a resolution before it's caused so much chaos in my life that it'll take a miracle to get it back to where it should be.
I took that step today. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted and it's gonna be ok once again.
I don't know when it started, I just know it's caught up with me. I've put my family, church and other obligations on the back-burner because work has really had me tied up. I've been extremely emotional, stressed, and just flat out tired. I'm enjoying having the extra money, because it's nice not living pay-check to pay-check like many are doing these days. It's nice to not have to worry if the fridge breaks whether or not we can afford a new one. I like being able to run out and buy new clothes if I want and not worry about the budget.
But lately it's all been eating at me. I've come to realize the sacrifices I'm making aren't the sacrifices I should be making. What's really important to me? You know sometimes we get so caught up in life that we forget about who's life it's affecting. I know that lately my spiritual relationship with God isn't what it should be. I know the relationship with my husband and daughter haven't been the same. I know that I have to review the circumstances and find a resolution before it's caused so much chaos in my life that it'll take a miracle to get it back to where it should be.
I took that step today. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted and it's gonna be ok once again.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
on being weak...
Why is it that women are considered to be so weak, but in every element of our lives we have to be strong?
Men, if you think we are weak, then stop expecting us to be strong!
Men, if you think we are weak, then stop expecting us to be strong!
Monday, November 2, 2009
my feelings right now
just wondering why I can't stop having the feelings I have and how did this all happen? I 'm so frustrated, angry, bitter, and hurting that it's eating me up and I don't feel like it's going to get any better. I don't know why my burdens haven't been lifted. I don't know why when I've been trying to do right following the Lord that I continue to hurt so much. I'm just sick of it.
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